I'm in a weird place in my life - or continue to be in a strange place in my life. I thought I was getting it back on track, but was just thrown a huge loop this past week. Or presented with a huge loop? What does that mean? These colloquialisms in our language..."to be thrown a loop"...or "thrown for a loop"...what does that really mean?
Something that I had not anticipated happened. Something major that will change the course of my life - for the better - but still the change is unsettling right now. It's like a drawer being dumped out - or a deck of playing cards being thrown into the air. I'm searching for analogies here, but not doing very well.
I could not have anticipated it, but at the same time I should have anticipated it. Someday, maybe I will write about it. Someday, maybe I will talk about it. I can't now because my feelings are too raw right now. My thoughts are all over the place - confused and disjointed. I'm tired of pretending everything is "okay" in my life - when it clearly is not.
My spirit is crushed.